Disappointment, disillusionment

I think I'm feeling a combination of the two.

With life as a whole... this isn't a rant about specific things, or it isn't intended to be.

It's just a blogpost about the (human) world.

How totally mediocre we are. There are great people in the world, who do things and make things with excellence. But they will always encounter the rest of us who do things with mediocrity, and their excellence will get dragged down simply because they had to deal with mediocrity and match up with it so that it works/is accepted into the rest of the world.

Mediocrity is a survival mechanism. You can do something excellently but the outcome/reward for it doesn't justify your effort. Doing things mediocrely (making up a word there hehe) saves you "wasting" time and energy on things that won't benefit you greatly.

It's also a bloody shit condition. Nature doesn't bother with mediocrity... every single thing, from the monstrously huge to the microscopically minute, is excellent... If it's not, it doesn't last very long. Sure you get some squibs and runts and 'special' cases, but on the whole, everything pretty much is perfect. Nature doesn't hash over the details, really. Ants don't just... hang around and sort of collect food, termites don't sort of make a termite mound...

Mediocrity in day to day life is depressing. I don't see why excellence is such an exclusive thing only for those who can pay "a little extra". Take a mattress, for example. You can pay tens of thousands of Rands for a mattress, or you can pay a few thousand Rand for a mattress. Both should be a good mattress. You shouldn't pay thousands of Rands for something and get a shoddy piece of shit, just because you can't afford to pay HUGE sums of money for luxury things. Same goes for clothes, shoes, food, electronic items, so many things come to mind. Decently made things shouldn't be a luxury.

What about an apartment. You can pay millions for an apartment, and it's a tiny, shoddily manufactured hole. Sure it's fitted with "luxury" things, like shiny taps and crisply clean cupboards, but underneath, they aren't so good after all. The crisp, clean cupboard is merely chipboard, the taps discolour and leak after a while, and the ceiling rains in. "That's how things are made these days". If you want something "better" (of a decent, good standard), you have to pay a HELL of a lot money.

You have to be rich even to afford a poor place... you have to be superrich to be able to afford a "nice" place.

Why? Because it's quicker and easier to make a load of junky things and sell them at a huge price than to take the time make something that lasts longer and is more valuable.